I want to be there for you

When I see some characteristics in you that clearly are inherited from me, and I’d rather you not have them, my heart just love you even more. I want to be there for you when you need empathy, sympathy and help. Remember, I understand what you will be going through . . .

Cry Freedom

When I embarked on the pursuit of the last (hopefully) degree of my life, I never thought that more than 2 years after I’m done, I am still not able to be freed from what tortured me for so many years before. These days, everytime I open my email, I have this nervous foreboding of my advisor/co-authors asking me to do this or that. Frankly, I don’t care a bit about having my name in print in some journal. While I still believe that some research can do good to humanity, I have no illusion that mine is really of any benefit to anyone, except that perhaps my co-authors can increase their chances of academic honor or job security. I really want out. When will I be truly Ph-inally Done????