I receive online bulletins from various baby web-sites. Today, I got one entitled “7 Ways your Toddler will Surprise you.” One of the ways include “Your child will make you a better person.” Yes, the baby is watching you. What you do becomes standards for him/her.
Being a mother definitely brings out virtues in me that I never had. I often hear mothers say their temper has become softer with all the training in patience from the baby. I still get angry and stressed out at least a few times a day, but there are things I endure that I never thought I would ever do.
The list of things I have done can go very long but I don’t want my blog to become a voyeuristic glamorizing of how great *I think* of myself as a mother. I guess it suffices to share one sentence I said to B. when Xuanie was just a couple of months old. Xuanie makes me love like I never did before. Yes, having him brings out sentiments and actions that I never ever had. It’s beautiful. I thank God for motherhood, and for Xuanie.
Motherhood might be my chance to be the better person I should be. Gotta work harder and be more conscious of my actions and words.
One funny aside: I actually had a dream about turd burgers once!! Yea, from all the changing of diapers. I had another turd dream 2 days ago, this time I was holding Xuanie’s poop in one hand and trying to keep his diaper up with another. It’s from my worry that he might be constipated. I can be as neurotic/obsessive a mom as I am as a person. My mind is constantly at work thinking if Xuanie has enough iron, calcium, Vit. A to Z etc. I look at his poop everytime to see what is digested and what is not, if everything is good . . .
