Xuanie no longer comes up to kiss me as an apology or to appease me when I get mad and “yell” at him. Instead, if I sound too harsh, he keeps very quiet, or he laughs about it and mimics me with “wah, wah, ya, ya, ya” sounds.
I have this inclination towards becoming a naggy mom that loses her temper often. I don’t want that to happen. It’s not good for the emotional development of Xuanie.
(And, especially after all the sleep deprivation and thousands of diapers I have been changing him, besides the many other hard work and sacrifices I have made, I want to be a mom loved and respected by my baby. Not someone neurotic or annoying that he wants to avoid.)
