Got an email this morning about a potential job offering. I was happy but feared overwhelmed me at the same time. I looked at Xuanie, playing so happily, and fear that moving to a totally new place, without his dad, is going to affect him adversely. I fear I may be so stressed out with coping with the new job, plus having to take care of him single-handedly, that I may lose patience with him more easily. I fear he may not adjust well to all that’s new . . . I want to give up the opportunity. (Most importantly, the nearest church is some 2 hours’ flight away from where the job is, and I am not sure that’s a good idea.)
Coincidentally, I visited a daycare today and was impressed, and the rates were great. Xuanie liked it too. Should I sign him up for part-time “schooling” and socialization lessons, and live another year in limbo?
I am very frustrated with the situation of perpetual unknown, and B. broke the news of the possibility of an even longer length of waiting time for some direction as to where the family may be headed. It’s killing me.
September 15, 2008 at 4:29 pm |
Congrats on the job offer! Listen to your heart. you can never go wrong. I will talk to you soon…